The Past year has been absolutely crazy. All my friends graduated from college. I’m just starting my classes soon. I’m happy that I’m going back to school but very nervous at the same time. I don’t want to fail, and I still don’t know what I want to study. I don’t know what I want to be in the future still. It drives me crazy that I don’t know. arghh
In the past year I’ve been in a pretty bad car accident. I ended up in the hospital and ended up getting stitches on my forehead. I basically scared to drive and scared of other people’s driving too. I hate when people text, talking on the phone, doing their makeup and drive at the same time. People really don’t understand that not only are you putting yourself in danger, you’re endangering everybody else around you that’s on the road.
I also feel like my close knit group of friends are slowly drifting apart. I’ve always been a sentimental person, and always try to make birthdays and gatherings really special. Now, I feel like I’ve given up. I feel like nobody else tries and I’m always pulling my hair out trying to plan something.
My biggest high is finally having a new boyfriend. It’s been over a year, and I was starting to wonder if there was something wrong with me! I honestly didn’t think my new boo would be someone so close to me. One of my best friends actually! And he’s actually been able to pull me out of my slump. I’ve quit smoking because of him. And for the first time in a long time, I feel really happy, really really happy.
Whats the big deal?! I like mainstream music. I like to listen to all types of music, even a bit of country. I just don’t like the fact that I have heard young kids singing to some of these erm… dirty songs, that don’t send out such a great message. Besides that I’m fine with it! :]
Oh god I have such bad memory! I think the earliest memories I can recall is when I was in elementary school and I liked to be the tough girl and beat up all the boys. And play in the dirt with my three other best friends, a Chinese, a half Korean half American, and a Haitian girl. We were the girls that played with mud and wasn’t afraid of worms or snakes. We loved to play outside all day. We even had water balloon fights against the boys in the neighborhood every summer. hehe I was such a tomboy. :]
I wouldn’t want to move there. I would just like to visit, it sounds wayy to hectic for me to live there. I guess I can’t handle the fast pace cities. I Would love to go climb mount Fuji and bathe in a hot spring. Go shopping, and get some amazing clothes that you wouldn’t be able to find in the states. I always wanted to see the cherry blossoms bloom. I want to go to their bars and clubs. And visit the fish market. Maybe I’ll hunt for the best bowl of ramen. There’s just so much do to over there. One day I’ll go. And I’ll tell you about it, promise. :]
Honestly I don’t remember my first kiss at all. I know its kind of sad to think that I can’t remember my first kiss. It was probably bad and awkward or something to be pushed out of my mind! oh well. lol
My first love on the other hand I still remember. He turned out to be an asshole and left me for my friend. I thought I really loved him, when I was with him I was constantly defending him. Everybody thought he was weird and nobody liked him. And I kept trying to change peoples minds. Now that I reanalyze it! All those people said those things because it was true! The whole world couldn’t be wrong! Why the f**k did I think everybody was an idiot?! LOL I did a lot of dumb things for him. And I’m not going to go through everything that happened with him and me because I don’t care about him anymore. It really hurt me back then but I’m just happy that I’m not with him now! He’s one of those exes that make you say, “what the F**K was I thinking?!?!? He’s a LOSER.”
I wish I had a fairy tale first love with tummies full of butterflies, dozens of roses, and amazing late night phone conversations. But I ended up with a piece of shit. But life goes on, and if you’re patient you’ll find you’re true love. Who will give you even more than you’ve wanted. (Like romantic dinners, crazy vacations, and boxes of Tiffany’s.) :]
I don’t even know what I’m going to have for dinner!! lol I always dreamed for a future that would be with a rich husband, traveling the world, living in a huge mansion, shopping at all the expansive stores, and without a care at all! Of course that’s only a dream.
Honestly I just hope that everybody that I love, anybody that is close to me to be happy and healthy. And for me? I just wish to be “comfortable,” meaning I wouldn’t end up living paycheck to paycheck. I just don’t want to struggle to pay the bills, and of course have a place on my own, with a man that I love. Being rich is great but being happy and comfortable would be just fine with me.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
One moment where I felt most satisfied with my life is when I’m with my mother doing her nails and dying her hair. She knows shes growing older but she still wants to look pretty. And she loves to feel a little spoiled. She loves to be pampered. Sometimes she likes to be a little bit of a show off! She always tells me stories about her when she was younger in Vietnam. How everybody always complimented on her hands, her pretty feet, and her long healthy black hair. Sometimes she goes a little overboard. But I love to see her smile, shes a bit of a comedian her self. And I feel the happiest, seeing her happy.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Anything in the BOLD lettering is me! Everything else is an article from another site.
I really do think that the Scorpio sign suits me well! I am a very emotional person and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I tend to hold grudges but it takes ALOT to get me mad.
Here’s a short description I found from another site.
You are “in tune” to the emotions of others. You know when others are being false or insincere. You enjoy mysterious things and personal secrecy. You don’t get angry easily, but, if you are offended, you hold on to it for a long time. You are attracted to the healing arts and spiritual truths. However, you are also interested in financial matters and management.
Scorpio, the eighth sign of the Zodiac, is a feminine sign. It is ruled by fierce Mars, the warrior planet, and mysterious Pluto, the planet of transformation. Scorpio governs will and authority. Scorpio people are passionate and have very deep feelings. Although you are a loyal and dedicated friend, you are fiercely competitive.
Determined Scorpio, a stable sign, can be a bit stubborn and tenacious. In many ways this is good because it gives you the strength to get things done. On the surface, you may seem easy going and friendly. However, you like to control your situations.
Keys to your success are a strong will and the ability to to get to the bottom of things.
Unless it becomes necessary, you are not combative. You guard your privacy, so others get to know you only up to a point. When you are after something (or someone) your determination is fierce. However, you are not arrogant. You are generally interested in others and what they have to say.
Emotions govern your first reactions to everything, but you don’t show your emotions easily. You need to dominate, or control, relationships and rarely show your true feelings.
Scorpios make good doctors, investigators, ecologists, financial managers, engineers, navigators (of the Titanic?) and secret agents.
Scorpio colors are red, black, midnight blue, and emerald green. Scorpio rules metallic iron and your birthstone is the topaz. Topaz, one of the hardest minerals, cannot be cut with a knife. It is yet another representation of the Scorpio nature. Scorpio flowers include the anemone, heather, and gardenia.
Occupying the 5th position in the Chinese Zodiac, the Dragon is the mightiest of the signs. Dragons symbolize such character traits as dominance and ambition. Dragons prefer to live by their own rules and if left on their own, are usually successful. They’re driven, unafraid of challenges, and willing to take risks. They’re passionate in all they do and they do things in grand fashion. Unfortunately, this passion and enthusiasm can leave Dragons feeling exhausted and interestingly, unfulfilled.
I really do like to live by my own rules. :3
While Dragons frequently help others, rarely will they ask for help. Others are attracted to Dragons, especially their colorful personalities, but deep down, Dragons prefer to be alone. Perhaps that is because they’re most successful when working alone. Their preference to be alone can come across as arrogance or conceitedness, but these qualities aren’t applicable. Dragons have tempers that can flare fast!
Nope! I hate being alone! This doesn’t sound like me at all!
Considering their hard-working nature, Dragons are healthy overall. They do get stressed and suffer from periodic tension/headaches, likely because they take so many risks. Dragons could benefit from incorporating mild activity into their lives. Yoga or walking would be good as these activities can work both their minds and their bodies.
Dragons prefer leading to being led. Jobs that allow them to express their creativity are good choices. Some good careers include: inventor, manager, computer analyst, lawyer, engineer, architect, broker, and sales person.
Dragons will give into love, but won’t give up their independence. Because they have quick, sometimes vengeful tempers, their partners need to be tough-skinned. Dragons enjoy others who are intriguing, and when they find the right partners, they’ll usually commit to that person for life.
Awwww, this is true! I like to wear the pants in the relationship!!
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
1. I’m 5’4 but I appear to be 5’6. (I think)
2. I have really vivid dreams and remember most of them.
3. I’m not a bad artist. :]
4. I’m a pack rat, its hard for me to throw away things. I like to keep things and try to do something creative with it later.
5. I’m forgetful, but I remember really random things. For example I won’t remember the date for your birthday but I’ll remember a certain moment we had together that was hilarious. Like the time you went the whole day with your zipper down and I waited to tell you to see how long it took for you to notice! lol
6. Purple is my favorite color.
7. I love spicy food, and freak out when I find out we’re out of sriracha.
8. I’m a nervous driver, so I try to avoid driving in general.
9. I Love making people laugh. I pretty much think I’m a small time comedian.
10. I’m very sentimental.
11. I la la loveee shopping!
12. I always wanted a shar pei, but I’m scared of dogs in general. I don’t ever want to get bitten!
13. I never had Chicken pox.
14. I’ve never been stung by a bee.
15. I don’t like doing anything alone! I hate the thought of being alone.
16. Whenever I do my makeup I feel like an artist painting a picture. ahha
17. I just recently started eating veggies.
18. I don’t like eating anything with a very chewy rubbery texture. Like tendon, or any fat.
19. I hate watermelon and strawberry flavored candy, lip glosses, anything. But I love the actual fruit watermelon and strawberries.
20. I don’t like online shopping!
21. I’m really good with kids but horrible with parents. lol
22. I never get sick of eating pho. (vietnamese beef noodle soup)
23. <— Is one of my favorite numbers.
24. I have three tattoos.
25. I can’t swim!
26. I believe in ghosts.
27. I don’t like feet. ackkk!
28. I have a scar of three little teeth marks, from my little brother biting me when we we’re younger. The story is I supposedly tried to steal his bottle of milk. And I’m guessing he got mad. -=]
29. I love to jump in rain puddles.
30. Everybody tells me I’m really loud, but I don’t believe them. :]
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
I would be a liar if I said I never thought about it. I had these thoughts when I was a “misunderstood” teenager. It was my darkest moments, when I didn’t care about anything except for having fun. And I felt stuck, stuck with a lifestyle that I couldn’t get out of. I was an emotional wreck! I am one of those people who can almost always seem happy and energetic when I’m not. It was all because I had a loser boyfriend who was going no where! And I know it stupid but at the time I thought he was “cool.” haha I was drowning and I didn’t know how to save myself. I abandoned my close friends and skipped school all the time. To be honest I barely remember anything from high school. I don’t even know how I survived!
I think I was saved by another boyfriend who was very sweet, honest, and very caring. He never had a girlfriend before, so he was a nubcake at relationships. I felt like he really did save me. If I never met him I don’t think I would be here today. So he has a permanent spot in my heart. Even though we are not dating anymore, we’re still close friends. When we hang out to catch up, it’s like we hung out just yesterday. When it has actually been months. I’m always hoping for the best for him.
I’ve thanked you before, but I’ll thank you a million times more!
I don’t have a specific religion. I do believe in a higher power. It’s just comforting to believe that there is someone out there watching over you. I don’t want to sit around all day praying that someone would help my useless sinful soul find the right path.
I really don’t mind if you go to church and believe in what you want to. I have an open mind. I’ll let you do anything you want as long as you don’t try to put you’re views onto me. Whatever that makes you happy! You go on and do it boo boo. :]